Spare Change

Thursday, July 09, 2009
Spare Change
Every decision comes with a backlash. Some are small tidal waves riding up your pant legs, not disturbing the sun heating up your face. Others push you under and cover your mouth and nose and dare you to breathe it in or hold your breath because you can't do both and whatever you choose to do will smother you and make you choke. What I do now is weigh out the risks. So I go ahead and I choke the best way I know how because I'm tired of breathing someone else in and choking anyhow. So the other side of this coin was turmoil and incongruence and some sad, sad moments where the sky was falling and the earth was shaking and I just knew nothing would be back to how it ever was....and that's exactly what I was looking for. I'm sure I still don't know all the consequences of that decision, and they're still coming, and I'm still questioning. Not if it's right, but how long I'll be paying for it?